Personal Investigation Part 2
My Introduction + Idea
2020 started off with a chaos in my eyes, the first hour after midnight of 2019-2020 was very adventurous for me, I don't know how it was for others, and it is safe to say most had fun, but for me, it was a moment of rewinding everything that has happened to me in life, everything I have been through, and with all of the negatives that had come across my path, I am grateful to be here, to have seen all the faces that I know off, to have exchanged every single word with other people, I am grateful for all. Since that night of 1st of January, I have stopped underestimating myself and stuck to my go to phrase "Everything happens for a reason". This inner phrase has helped me move through a lot. Now that Covid-19 global pandemic had hit our beautiful planet, I would like to say, well done to everyone coping with all the issues they have, well done for the support you give each other. During the lockdown period I have had many difficulties and struggles, but at night, I have found myself in an hour of peace, where I would be sitting besides my bed after midnight, and it was a moment of meditation into a phase of inner peace. Conflicting with your own mind is not a good thing and it never was, but in most cases, people go along with their subconscious mind, rather than conflicting with it. However I can easily say that for me it is probably 70% conflict and 30% peace within myself. Now, all my thoughts started to balance out and I have realised that, somewhere deep down, I found my inner peace. It is still extremely hard to find it, but I found it, not the peace I had before, but actual inner peace where no matter what is happening, I have grip over anything. Since I found my inner peace, I realised I love the sensation of having some inner peace, and this is where the idea is coming from...
My part 2 personal investigation will be to do with the duality of self discovery. We all in have 2 different sides to us, all of us. Whether both sides are negative, both sides are positive, or both completely different from each other. I feel like along side with a different mind sets, comes a different life experience. I can give you an example:
Say for instance you are an individual who has a lot of fear for many things, but you also have a side of you that loves to take risks, with the fearful side, you may avoid eery fun activity passing your life, but the daring side of you, takes many risks which can put you in danger (and your fearful side is aware of it) but can also give you life long memories, so there we are. With different mindsets comes a different life experience. Surely that was not too good of an example but you can create an imaginary individual with 2 completely different sides and see for your self what different life choices will the 2 sides take.
This leaves me to conclude the fact that I want to make a project about the two differing sides of me, and that will reflected in my work. The 2 sides to focus on will be the lost control, losing grip over everything, and the one with, inner peace, concentration and love for my surroundings. I think this will help me a lot to discover more of my self over the course of the project, and of course I will link this project to the idea of time. Time is a very big theme in my life, I have created many art pieces to show time, and I feel like everyone should always have a think, at least once a day, a deep thinking moment about how fast the time goes, and that we should never complain about how slow it is going. So I will definitely link time and duality of self expression together for this project.
(Big apologies for the rant)
My part 2 personal investigation will be to do with the duality of self discovery. We all in have 2 different sides to us, all of us. Whether both sides are negative, both sides are positive, or both completely different from each other. I feel like along side with a different mind sets, comes a different life experience. I can give you an example:
Say for instance you are an individual who has a lot of fear for many things, but you also have a side of you that loves to take risks, with the fearful side, you may avoid eery fun activity passing your life, but the daring side of you, takes many risks which can put you in danger (and your fearful side is aware of it) but can also give you life long memories, so there we are. With different mindsets comes a different life experience. Surely that was not too good of an example but you can create an imaginary individual with 2 completely different sides and see for your self what different life choices will the 2 sides take.
This leaves me to conclude the fact that I want to make a project about the two differing sides of me, and that will reflected in my work. The 2 sides to focus on will be the lost control, losing grip over everything, and the one with, inner peace, concentration and love for my surroundings. I think this will help me a lot to discover more of my self over the course of the project, and of course I will link this project to the idea of time. Time is a very big theme in my life, I have created many art pieces to show time, and I feel like everyone should always have a think, at least once a day, a deep thinking moment about how fast the time goes, and that we should never complain about how slow it is going. So I will definitely link time and duality of self expression together for this project.
(Big apologies for the rant)